I've been in a bit of funk lately. Nothing too funkish, but funkish enough for me to realize I need to change somethings. I need to do as Elder Ballard counseled a few years ago and find joy in the moments of motherhood. To help me do that, I am going to try and write four motherly things that either (1) made me smile (2) appreciate the sweet three kids that have been entrusted to me (3) feel joy in my decision to raise and family and be a full time mom (4) recognize the Lords hand in helping me to be successful as a Latter Day Saint woman and mother.

I decided to write these 4 moments on this blog, not necessarily to share with you (who ever might read this, which I doubt is many) but, to be honest, I know I will either lose whatever notebook I decide to write them in or I won't be able to find a pen, etc etc and then it won't be done. Hopefully since I like to be on the computer it will help motivate me to remember and record these joyful moments, so on those funkish days I can look back and remember with smiles why I've chosen the life I have and why I couldn't dream or consider anything different for myself.

With that all being said, I have to add that my life isn't perfect. I hope that if anyone ever comes across this blog and reads it (which again I am doubtful of) and compares themselves to it, or feel guilt or bad about themselves that they'll realize these are the HIGH points of my life, not my every waking moments. I have terrible mothering moments all the time. And that's the problem, that's why I wanted to start this. I feel so much guilt (which I'm trying to only save for sin now) about the things I do wrong or could have done better, or didn't do at all, that it can be crippling on those funkish days. I'm not trying to pretend that my life is perfect or everything is rosy. Opposition in all things right? We have to have the bad to know the good, the sad to know the happy. Don't compare your low points with my high points. Deal?